Feeling Alone Can Really Hurt!!!

Today was a difficult day. I played basket ball for 2-1/2 hours this morning and then I watched Jake for the rest of the day. Jake is a great kid and love spending time with him, but sometimes I feel that I am all alone. Jake and I have visited my great grandmothers alone.

Today, when it came time to clean the house I did that alone. When we had friends over earlier tonight I held Jake while Brittany got the fondue ready. I held Jake alone while the fondue was warming up. Jake needed his diaper changed. Before Brittany came and got Jake back from me I changed his diaper. It is so rewarding to feel needed, but it is so difficult to hold Jake, clean the house, wash the dishes, and change diapers. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. In Elders quorum tomorrow I will, again, be alone with Jake. Jake comes with me each week to Elders Quorum. We go alone...while Brittany teaches her primary class...she gives her primary kids candy, too. Brittany never gives Jake or me candy...if she did we would proably have to eat it alone.